What I Decided To Do Today
All day today, while doing various stuff, I thought about the type of changes I wanted to make. I need them to be subtle and noticeable to me. Does that make sense? There are several different things I want to do with my life (I'll touch on those at a later time). For now, the biggest one is being the best mom I can possibly be to my boys. Isn't that every mother's goal?
I realized in order for me to achieve this, I need to harbor in my patience. Yes, I do have it but I find it floating away from me during the most inopportune times. Right when I need it and reach out for it, it sneaks away! I need to realize that when my boys need my attention, I need to give it to them, most of the time. I'm not going to give in to their every whim and need either.
I also need to learn how to not focus on so many things at one time. Several times, I've caught my oldest say to me "Mom, are you listening to what I'm saying?" Whoa! I'm great at multi-tasking but I probably shouldn't when my kid is speaking to me. These are the precious moments in life that go by so quickly. One day, I'll look up and realize that they are grown men with their own careers and families. Though, I do have to say that I made my oldest promise me that he would never leave me. He was 5 years old at the time, so it worked. Now, not so much.
Recently, we celebrated my oldest's 9th birthday and celebrated his getting on the honor roll in school. I had tears of joy and sadness falling down my face. I was extremely proud of him. To the point where I literally felt my heart swelling with so much love. So much love! As a mom, I want my children to be more successful than I ever was or will be. My second will also be celebrating his 7th birthday in just 2 days! While, his grade level doesn't recognize honor roll yet, his grades were equivalent to that. Once again, I am proud, extremely proud. My babies are growing up. I can't believe how fast time is flying.
I have another son, my baby. My little baby boy who is 3.5 years old. He is the perfect child for me to practice my patience on. I'm gonna have to tether that patience balloon next to me.
With all these birthdays (mines was thrown in the mix too), I came to the realization that my time is NOW. My time for my family is NOW. So, my goal for this week and on going is to practice my patience and focus on my kids more. I will hang on to that patience balloon as tight as I can and tug on it hard when I need it the most. This is how I will start with my little, subtle changes in my life. Change doesn't happen over night. I will need, you guessed it, PATIENCE.